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I’m pretty sure you guys will hear the name Leona Lewis at some point in your life (that is, if you haven’t already.) This amazing yet down-to-earth Brit singer was the winner of an Idol-type competition we have here in England dubbed The X Factor (if I’m not wrong, we no longer do Pop Idol here in England) – and yes, we’ve got your “friendly” Simon Cowell who’s involved in judging and producing some of the winners/finalists.

But contrary to what you may think, this post isn’t about Leona. Or her successor (Alexandra Burke.)

As part of our school’s efforts to raise funds for the girls’ hockey + netball tour to Australia and Singapore, the girls thought it would be a good idea to have our own smaller-scale “replica” of The X Factor. We did away with the auditions, voting lines, and the mentoring – it was just interested performers signing up to sing/do their own thing, with 4 “judges” on stage (they weren’t really THAT serious, although we did have a mock-Simon-Cowell in the form of a sarky history teacher). We got money by having spectators pay at least 2 quid (£2) at the door to watch the show.

Guess who was part of the line up?

Yes, yours truly.

Now although I’ve mentioned that I’m on a music scholarship at my school, 1) it was to do with instrumental skill and 2) I’m not known as a stellar singer. Don’t ask what went on in my mind, but I thought it would be fun to just go upon stage, and just sing. So I told Flo (the organiser) to put my name down, having picked Dido’s “White Flag” as my song of choice for the day.

Then the day rolled around, and whilst waiting for my turn along with some of the other performers, I’d realised that the song title beside my name on the runner’s list wasn’t the song I picked. It *was* a Dido song indeed, but it was “Here With Me” instead. Slightly shocked, I asked the runner to help me check whether it was just a mistype (Dido’s known to sing so many hits) – and it turns out that Flo had downloaded the wrong song. 0_0

There wasn’t any other option except for 1) pull out (BOO!) or 2) learn the lyrics of the other song. Let’s just say that I opted for the latter. =D The MC helped by swapping the order, putting my name second-last in the line up – so I had 10+ mins to learn up as much of the lyrics as I could.

You’re right if you thought that my heart was probably pounding in my chest when I was up on that stage. After all, this was the very first time where I was singing in front of a 300-400+-strong audience (there are over 500 students in my school)! True, I’ve performed quite a bit in musical + drama terms, but those were never solo; rather, they were group/ensemble performances. As for singing, the last time I sang solo was in 2006, in front of a more forgiving (Malaysian) audience during that year’s prefect dinner.

I might say that, ironically, though the Brits in my school were a less-forgiving audience (don’t ask!), this probably motivated me more, and I actually performed better than back in 2006. Considering the fact I only had 10 minutes to learn the lyrics (I knew the music beforehand, so that helped), I’ll say that was a pretty good run. =)

After it all, although I didn’t win (that went to a classmate, who’s been singing for years at Queen’s), the whole experience has made me realise that I actually enjoy music, and that I could possibly explore it as a career. No, not just as a plain ol’ singer, but more in the songwriting sense.

You see, prior to that performance, I had been getting these catchy music riffs off and on that would pop up in my mind, prompting me to log them down. This had been happening since I completed my GCSE Music Britpop-styled (think Oasis, Blur) composition, the whole “waves of inspiration for songs” thing.

“So what,” you say? “Anyone can just come up with a random string of notes, no big.”

They weren’t just “ordinary riffs”; the kind that people hear as a single-line melody and later add to it. Me, I would tend to hear them in “full harmony” – that is, with a full band (guitar, piano, bass, drums, synthesizers, the works!) Goodness knows why, but since then, I’ve just logged down these riffs by 1) humming them in a dictaphone or 2) keying what I hear “in my mind” into Sibelius + Cubase. None of them have been further developed into full-blown songs as I don’t have the means/technology/peripherals to yet, but I’m enjoying the rid so far.

Both my parents know, and they think it’s a good thing since I enjoy it – but I’m now torn as this means that my higher-education choice is gonna be a real toughie. Mum calls me her “all-rounder” since I’m (touch wood) academically strong in the sciences + maths AND in languages, but I’m also good at all the “technical” electives I’m taking (Drama, Food Tech, etc.) And it’s not like I hate any of the subjects I do, I actually have a keen interest in a lot of things.
To quote my music teacher, Mr Hedges, “you want to do too much, Ari!”

So yeah, I’m tres confused – as the Japanese would say, doushiyou? My friends say that there’s no need to worry about choices just as yet, but I feel time closing in – I don’t want to have to give up anything I enjoy, really.

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